1. Intros

Firstly, I am not a doctor and this is not a medical advice site. I’m just here to share my personal fertility journey, the highs and (many, many) lows and the fact that I came out the other side and made peace with my path.  If I can help anyone along the way, then all the better.

In this blog, I share my story; sperm donors, IUIs, pregnancy loss, fertility treatments at home and abroad and everything along the way.

So here is a little preamble…

I'm Ella.

I always really wanted to have children, and I mean really, really. I know anyone reading this is very likely to be in the same boat. 

In my self-delusional little mind, I had simply believed that it would somehow magically happen in a fairy-tale-miracle-sort-of-way...

Life is funny though (and fairy-tale miracles seemed notably absent), in my 20’s my career was taking off and I was always thinking, “later, later.”  Well, later came faster than I thought and all of a sudden there I was smack bang in the middle of my 30’s; single, childless & exhausted with burnout. (Not quite the success story I had planned)

And... there were some issues with this dream of mine to have children, let’s make a list;

a)     I was single (not the ultimate hurdle, really);

b)     I had been a functioning anorexic for over ten years and the lack of nutrition had ravaged my body internally;

c)     I hadn’t had a period in 8/9 years as a by-product of the anorexia (this really was a more significant hurdle) and I was rapidly hurtling through my thirties;

So…what happened?

Here is the story of how I went from no periods at all to two miracle babies. 

Trigger warning: there are various ups and downs, including pregnancy loss references and some heartache and anxiety thrown in for good measure…

Buckle up fertility friends – Let’s go.

N.B. Like all humans I make mistakes and if you see any in these posts you can, by all means, point them out to me, but please be kind, we are all just trying to exist on this big blue and green planet together.